I've recently been reading Kimora Lee Simmons' book Fabulosity: What It Is and How to Get It. Now
at first glance of the title I'm sure it seems that this book is filled
with nothing but information on how to look, act, and be your best.
True, it is those things but it is so much more. I'm only on Rule #7
and already I have taken so much from this book. I understand that
there are times when you have to be a bitch to get what you want but
class, grace, and kindness get you more than being agressive, arrogant,
and egotistical.





Now I am not bashing anyone here but the prime example would be Nick
Corbett. Now don't get me wrong, everyone knows I've hated him and
talked shit about him and I admit that. Recently, I've read his new
post and I find it inspiring that he has been so passionate about his
latest endeavor for animal rights. On the other hand, I don't agree
with his ethics, if you want to provide information for people
interested in animal rights that is all good and well but I believe you
should leave it up to the person to make their own decision. If they
choose the path that you disapprove of there is a certain amount of
respect and class that should be displayed.





   You catch a lot more flies with honey than you do vinegar.





I myself choose to provide information and let people make their
decisions, not once have I had a show down with someone just because
they choose to be friends with both Nick and I. I am not saying that
I've never stomped on people and been a bitch, I know I have, you know
I have too. The only difference is, and this does NOT justify it, I
don't act like a bitch because I feel like being a bitch, I act like a
bitch and point at peoples' flaws out of fear. I believed that if
everyone looked at other peoples' problems they wouldn't see my own and
that I would be ok. I think Nick is still in this stage, Nick's life
isn't easy by any means and I know a lot has happened to him (at least
so I've been told) all I hope for him is that he can find his way and
possibly learn and grow from his experiences and become a better
person.





He put me through a lot and I have one thing to say, no hard feelings
and thank you. He may think that he ruined my life and made it shitty
but the truth is that if he didn't put me through all of that, I
wouldn't have become a better person. I wouldn't have a loving
boyfriend, great friends, or a re-newed sense of self-worth or outlook
on the world.





So this is my last peace offering, I'm not apologizing for anything
I've done, because all I've done is try to survive in a world full of
backstabbers, gossipers, drama queens, and queen bees'.





I've choosen to take the diplomatic role and finish this once and for all.





I no longer care what people think of me. You think I'm ugly, that's
fine; for everytime you tell me that there are a million people telling
me I'm beautiful. You want to call me a bitch, that's fine; all I know
to do is how to be me and get what I want, and there are also a million
people telling me I'm a great person with a big heart. You want to
treat me like shit and try to break me, that's fine; I can always pick
myself back up and re-invent and I have plenty of people on my side to
help me along the path of life. You want to call me poor, that's fine;
I may not have a lot of money but I still know how to make the best out
of life and how to enjoy what I have, money never has and never will
buy happiness.





At the end of the day I'm not the one that looks bad for the things you
say about me and other people, you are the ones that look bad. Tearing
people down to make yourself look better does nothing but make you look
arrogant, caddy, bitchy, full of yourself, and scared. Realizing this
is what has made it easier to see the best in people, and thats all
that matters.





For a long time I was scared, and pointed the finger at people to keep
the negitive attention from me, but I dont care anymore. To me, it
doesn't matter what clothes you wear, who your friends are, who your
family is, or how much money you have and do you know why? Because if
you aren't happy with yourself than you have nothing, because the
bullies and the bitches won't be there forever and ultimately you are
the one that has to live with you and if you hate yourself and believe
you can never do anything good with your life, that's exactly what will
happen...you'll never amount to anything.





I know I may not have enough money to get into the best design school,
enough connections to get into the fashion industry, or the looks to be
on billboards but that doesn't matter. I believe in myself, I'm
different and unique and I embrace that. If I need to flip burgers and
pump your gas to get enough money to get into a good design school I
will, because whos going to have the last laugh? Me, when I'm doing
shows at fashion week in NYC and you're in your trailer with five
screaming kids you'll realize that this all makes sense. If I dont have
enough connections to get into the industry, that's fine because I'm
determined, driven, and will stop at nothing to get what I want. That's
how I'll make connections, hell I might not even need connections, I'll
show my ideas to a million different fashion houses and if they all say
no, that's ok because there is bound to be someone that will say yes.
If I'm not gorgeous enough to get into modeling, that doesn't matter
you can look like Brad Pitt but if you have no confidence you'll get no
where. Now people, that doesn't mean cockiness, going around saying
"I'm so hot" and "Oh hell yes I'm sexy" isn't confidence. Confidence is
the way you carry yourself with pride, the way you flaunt your
differences and quirks with a you dont like me, fine. To hell with you attitude.





So now I leave you with a few quotes.





"If I'd observed all the rules, I'd never have gotten anywhere."


-Marliyn Monroe





"Although there may be tragedy
in your life, there's always a possibility to triumph. It doesn't
matter who your are, where you come from. The ability to triumph begins
with you. Always."


-Oprah Winfrey





"The question isn't who is going to let me; it's who is going to stop me."


-Ayn Rand





"Don't let anyone tell you that you have to be a certain way. Be unique. Be what you feel."


-Melissa Etherridge





"Conformity is the jailer of freedom and the enemy of growth."


-John F. Kennedy





"Each of us will have to make the choices that allow us to be the largest versions of ourselves."


-Julia Alvarez








Ciao Darlings,


The One and Only,


-Queen E™